"I once worked in admin but had a nervous breakdown. "
Been there. You earned a rest, you paid your taxes , so why worry?
Comedy and music were my crutches.
Now you should do the little personal projects you've been putting off for decades.
`You could dress in drag, and earn money singing in campsites to keep the midges and mosquitos away.
Get ready............
You could call yourself 'Citronella Fitzgerald'.....